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𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐫 𝐓𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐝𝐬 ᴀɴᴅ 𝐈𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 ғᴏʀ 𝐁𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐬

Jul 09, 2024
Jul 09, 2024
Lost Eros
III
m.v.d. · 💙
"Writers, in essence, are professional word tamers; if the words walking down the lines were living creatures, they would surely fear and hate the pen's nib as tamed animals do the raised whip." ― Sigizmund Krzhizhanovsky, The Letter Killers Club
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Pharma Chameleon

The day my mother decided it was Over with my father, she'd come home from work to find me, in infancy, crawling the carpet surrounded by a variety of pills.

You'll note Reader that I've not called them random pills, because "random" has taken on a New Meaning in our Current times, which is De-Cid-Edly non-random.

They were, however, Random Pills, literally, Like Literally random pills, in the sense that at the time — pre-Internet, can't just Look Shit Up — it was apparently common practice to play "pill roulette," which is to say that you'd meet up with Other Folks at bars, parties, whatever, and it was "Yeah man, the blue ones make you go up, the green ones make you go doooooown"-level user reviews followed by a hand-off exchange

for some red ones that-that-that-that make you Really Trip and some yellow ones that'll get you SO HORNY
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The Guest
I had a friend I'd let stay at my apartment. Sleep on the couch. I didn't charge him any money. He didn't have any. So that worked out. . He didn't work. I barely did. . Three-hundred-some dollars, then. My share of the rent. Split. Center of the city. Halfways with another friend, who supported the notion of the couch friend. . We were punks. Of a luxurious sort.
(And the etymology of "extort"
occurs to you)
Easy enough to scrounge. Lax enough to slack. . Do a gig here or there. Or if you dare: Beg mother. One stab or another. . A hustle here, a hustle there. Little hassle. Fuck cares.
Causal Encounters

One night we sold an aluminum rolling desk to a large-laughing woman with gimmick glasses in the parking lot of a grocery store at 3 AM.

It had been listed on craigslist as "Alien-Smashed Desk (Guitar)."

She'd thought that was hysterical, and gladly paid our asking price.

Forty bucks? Fifty?

Who can recall.

Pizza money, really.

The desk had been battered and dented with the body of an overhead-swung Telecaster some weeks prior.

The culmination of a noisy recording session.

A final clang.

Climactic.

We loaded the desk into her van.

Rolled right in, beneath the glow of late-night security lights.

The exercise had the general air of Suspended Group Sex.

We didn't do that, though.

Didn't get down like that.

You could have a lot of fun on craigslist then.

I got a gig on there once as a bar ambassador for Molson beer.

A dozen or so recruits sent round to sportsbars dressed as hockey players, in full gear.

Pads jerseys and all.

I don't know if anyone watches hockey now, but at the time they didn't, not in Ohio.

We were Bluejackets in a Scarlet City.

Patrons at the bars thought we were actual NHL players.

We'd work the room while one member of the crew was tasked with standing in front of a hockey goal.

Drunks took wild shots for prizes.

Score and it's a free T-shirt and drink specials.

Miss or get stopped by whoever's playing Bootleg Brodeur and it's "Awwww fuck, man!"

And your buddies' scorn.

HAW HAW HAW! HAW HAW HAW! HAW HAW HAW!

It was a different time.

Another gig I handed out packs of cigarettes for free.

Death's ambassador.

Got the job pretending to care about jam bands during the interview.

Naming off acts whose songs I'd never heard to some half-stoned college boy.

Widespread Panic! Government Mule! The String Cheese Incident!

"Yeah, man, yeah." Information I'd absorbed from years flipping through records. "Yeah man, I love all that shit." Picking up vibes. "Yeah, man." Giving impressions. "Yeah."
Put-ons. Gimmicks. Suppositions. . Summon-a-sucker — Stooges, fates, acts.
BANG BANG BANG. It's all an act. Always has been. Take that for what you weren't.
m.v.d.  ·  JQD
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Lost Eros, CA · Jul 2024.